Is anyone there? Yeah? Ok, sit down grab your brew and get comfy, let’s all talk about what we have been up to. I’m sure you have had a really busy few weeks, keeping up with what ever you have to be doing. I know I have. I am trying to look back over the last few months and see what’s really gone on, not just with me but with everyone, including you!

If you want to know where all this started with me then please have a read of my first blog post that I put on here, that should explain, how I personally have ended up here today, and if you want to read the rest of the post, it really shows what it is like fir a young man with a young family dealing with FND.

I have had a really good few days away in the Lake District with my family, we got up to lots, but it does feel like it was short lived, I honesty feel like we could of stayed there all week! We were determined all together that we would not let FND ruin our holiday! If you follow me on Social Media then you can see the pictures from this amazing little get away we have had.

My children in the Lakes

Coming home and back to some sort of reality has really hit home for me, I have realised that it’s only a week away until the kids are back at school which also means Rachel is going back to work, and again in turn means I am going to be on my own again. Now I am going to do my very best to be able to get back to work, for normality and because I really miss work, and the people there!! Now if you work with me and your reading this, please know that I really do miss you and really can’t wait to get back!

I often try and read back the blog post I have done, and see what I have done, the things I have achieved over the last few months, and I understand that what I have achieved so far is amazing in its self. So I don’t understand why I feel so….. down? I have really good support around me, I am making small steps in the right direction but I just can’t seem to shake the feeling.

I really thought about talking about feeling down in my blog, as I know that it can upset some people, but then I thought this is meant to be a safe place for me, a place where I can talk about what is on my mind, and right now, no, I’m not feeling my best, but you know what, this is okay! We as people can feel like this. All I would say is that if your reading this and you think, yeah, I do feel a bit down, then turn to who ever is next to you, give them a hug. It will be okay, even if you don’t feel like it is right now!

So right now, I feel like FND has won, but I will be back, fighting. Trying to hold me own! I have to, for my wife, for my kids!

FND is the hardest thing I have had to deal with!!!

Stay safe guys!

5 thoughts on “Hello?

  1. Glad you had a good time in the Lakes Matthew! This is your place to share whatever is on your mind & how you’re feeling so need to worry about others, it’s your therapeutic space! I agree FND is such a hard challenge to live with daily! Thanks for sharing how you’re feeling, very relatable x

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  2. Say whatever you like, does you good to write it down.

    Those feelings will not last forever, although it seems like it.

    You will come out the other side, I did.

    Always look on the bright side of life.

    Auntie D

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