Tonight is yet another hard night,
They say that one of the causes of this FND is stress, how can you go about day to day with out being stressed.
I feel like a burden on people at the moment, I have to ask for people to help me with even the smallest things which I used to take for granted. Things like making a cup of tea or coffee, making a meal and even trying to get out of the door, and then when I’m out there someone pushing me around.
This in its self causes me a lot of stress, poeple say, “its okay I want to help” , “let me help”. But honestly that takes away soo much independently from someone (like me) and its horrible.
The pressures in which I place on my family and more so onto my wife, causes me soo much stress and anxiety it’s unreal. What can I do about this? Possible go and see my GP and see if there is anything they can do to help, but then with getting a appointment it’s 3-6 weeks to get a appointment which is another stress.
I am determined to get back to full fitness ASAP, but all I keep getting told is its a slow process, take each day as it comes….. Blah blah blah.
I have been home nearly 2 weeks now, and in the 2 weeks I have been home I have only fallen twice and these were both with my physio next to me so I didn’t do any more damage.
Granted I can’t walk up my stiars and have to. Use my bum, but that just makes me feel like I’m a kid again and put a rare smile on my face.
It’s like a mind game…..telling my brain that I need to get better and then actually getting better. Not trying to run before I can walk….. Literally.
Anyway rant over (till tomorrow)